It hit me today while I was listening to General Conference and following #ldsconf on Twitter. During the morning session the choir sang "Now Let Us Rejoice," and I tweeted "We'll love one another and never dissemble, but cease to do evil and ever be one." That song, and that line specifically, spoke to me just as much as any of the addresses during that session.
It's always been hard for me to express my testimony in words, even in writing. I can't explain it. I know Sam and Brittany (two of my favorite bloggers) have the amazing ability to put their faith into writing and I love them for it. I feel the Spirit, but when I try to talk about it, I can't do the experience justice.
I understand my blessing now. I might not be the best at expressing how I know that Heavenly Father is mindful of me during my trials (especially this week), but I can sing or listen or play the words "I'll strengthen thee, help thee and cause thee to stand/Upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand."
And if my children ask about my feelings on the Atonement, the words of "Come Thou Fount" tells it a lot better than I ever could:
"Jesus sought me when a stranger, wandering from the fold of GodHe to rescue me from danger interposed His precious blood.Prone to wanter, Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love.Here's my heart, oh take and seal it. Seal it for thy courts above."I will work on expressing my testimony, but I know that for the times when I fall short, there will always be music make up the difference.
My mantra, designed by my sister, and also lines from a hymn, naturally.
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ReplyDeleteI love this--girl, your words are fabulous. I love reading what you believe and what you have to say. But I understand. There are things in my patriarchal blessing that have totally perplexed me, but they've slowly become true and part of me and my life without me trying or even knowing what was happening.
ReplyDeleteWe all are so different. We experience God and truth differently. We express our faith and beliefs differently.
I think that's all so wonderful.
"I feel the Spirit, but when I try to talk about it, I can't do the experience justice."
ReplyDeleteI think we all feel that way. I know I do. And I think that's the way it's supposed to be. The Spirit is something you have to feel for yourself to understand. Our job in trying to share what we've felt is just to make people want to seek the Spirit for themselves. You've definitely accomplished that.